I Think I Can Live A Bit Longer

I made a spreadsheet. I didn’t want to do a forecast because, I know what doing nothing does. πŸ˜€ I know what doing too much fitness does. πŸ˜€ I also want to track the chemical effects of fitness itself. I am superhero sized. πŸ˜€ I don’t know how it happened. Being this large I’m kind of falling apart faster than a normal sized person. I talked about it in March because it was just a few weeks after my heart attack.

Then, I didn’t see my doctor for five months. I just, wasn’t sure what I wanted. Eventually, you basically pop pills like candy to stay alive. I wasn’t sure if that’s what I wanted. I basically needed a left lung and the upper portion of my heart replaced. Oh. I also needed um….my lung sacks to start working again they were filled with blood not in a good way. I was in no position to start a fitness program. πŸ˜€Β  Only because, well..you need to be healthy for that.

I’ve done a lot of crazy things. I rode my bicycle this far.

I broke three bicycles getting there. Then, I turned around and went back to Miami. πŸ˜€ I felt like a Cuban Sandwich.

I don’t know why people get heart attacks. There’s the tribal knowledge of eating too much fats. Being sedentary. Even blackout drunks have heart problems. There’s also that it runs in the family or, could–. You know? I do know, there’s very few locations to graft heart tissue from. The heart is such a unique muscle operating like a spider web constantly expanding and collapsing working silently. I like my heart and I would refuse a transplant even if it gave me another lifetime. Some would say, “But, you wouldn’t say it if you were dying.”Β I was dying. I didn’t sign the thing to save me until they told me a ballpark of how much it costs to save me. πŸ˜€ I just, wanted to make sure I had it.

I have started working out again. Not in the bulk way that I was doing previously. I found Heather Robertson’s Youtube videos really helpful. The structure and the muscle groups she hits are fun. I feel tired after. Then, I recover and hit it again.

I did these two today.

I feel okay. My heart rhythm is a little wacky. I digress. πŸ˜€ That hour or so, you know? I’m building something. It’s like when I’m studying. I can. Those two words. I can do that. So, that’s why I don’t limit myself to a forecast. I’ll be this small in 6 weeks. Or, my heart will get better. That’s not how my fitness journey looks. Haha. I was given this extra portion of life and this will make it a bit longer. It doesn’t have to be super long. I’ll be alright.

I do an hour or so a day with the Heather Robertson videos. In between classes. So. Sometimes on my phone and other times on my laptop.Β It helps to have that uh, alternatives.Β Blogging and drawing